Creativity is allowing yourself to make mistakes. Art is knowing which ones to keep.” -Scott Adams
Money will come if it’s supposed to, but all I can control is the quality of what I’m doing.
Artistic Welfare?
With the internet, it’s never been easier for an artist or band to get the word out to their fanbases about their upcoming shows, new music, or anything else they have going on thru various social media platforms.  But with the decline of the old model of music business, it’s also harder than ever to make money being a musician without trying out new strategies.  Musicians are being forced to be a little more creative (which is a good thing) and come up with alternative ways to get their music made and funded.

It seems more and more artists are using the fundraising site Kickstarter.com (me being one of them.)  For those (two of you) who aren’t familiar, Kickstarter is basically a site where fans can pledge dollar amounts set by the artist, and depending on how much they pledge, in return the fans can get everything from the record itself to extras such as merch items, guest list spots at local shows, even live house concerts in the fans living rooms and songwriting sessions via Skype.  It’s a great way to cut out the middle man, let the fans directly support the artists they enjoy, and keep the pipeline from artist to fan more direct.

I recently had a lengthy discussion with a friend who used to pursue music asking me the ins and outs of doing a Kickstarter campaign, and he said it sounded like “artistic welfare” in a way.  That this way of approaching making music takes the “work” out of the equation and lets the artists be lazy, sit back, and watch the money roll in without actually putting any effort into it.  I asked where he was coming from with this idea and he showed me this video that’s been circulating some:

http://vimeo.com/37357896

I don’t know Nathan from Spoken Nerd personally and I’m sure he’s a nice guy, but as a working independent musician I find this video and it’s approach a bit misleading, ignorant, and mildly offensive.  He’s basically insinuating that if an artist or band uses Kickstarter to raise funds for a record or project then that takes all the “hard work” out of it.  And although that might not be his intent, that’s what he’s getting across.  

At the very least, Kickstarter takes some of the stress out of the financial wonder of when an artist will have enough money to fund a project, and let’s them focus on making it and making it good. But it also isn’t a guarantee either, as I found out when my Kickstarter campaign didn’t work completely.  I know a few artists who’ve used Kickstarter and actually had to spend more money and extra work just putting together the different packages for those who pledged.  It’s worth it though, as a thanks to fans who support what we do, and more specifically supported the record that was “kickstarted.”  It’s a cool and fun way to get fans involved in the record making process.  It’s essentially a pre-order with extra goodies. 

Being a full time musician is an entrepreneurial effort, not unlike starting a small business.  I’ve heard it my whole life, and I’m tired of my profession being belittled because the general public doesn’t know what goes into it. It is the DEFINITION of “hard work.” There is no consistent paycheck, there is no guarantee that bills will be paid each month, there is no guarantee that work will even be there when we need it.  We have to wake up everyday and put in “HARD WORK” to get it done, make contacts, practice, book shows (which in and of itself is tedious and mind-numbing), get merch designed, order merch, sell merch, play shows, sell OURSELVES to potential clients/venues, PRACTICE! It is (to quote Jerry Maguire) an “up-at-dawn, pride-swallowing siege that I cannot fully tell you about.” In other words, it’s HARD WORK.  Sometimes I wish I could just work the counter at Whole Foods, clock out and come home and relax.  But I can’t.  Because if I’m not working for me and my music, no one is.  

I don’t want to come off for a second as complaining about what I do.  This is my “chosen” profession, but I don’t want it to be discounted either because others may not understand what goes into it.  Sometimes (most times) it feels like a form of self-abuse, but it is my passion and I will continue to pursue it because I believe that it is important, if anything, for my well-being.

The other thing that really bothered me about Nathan’s video is that he is condescending to those who use Kickstarter as being “lazy” essentially, but at the end tacks on that if you want to give him money go to his Bandcamp.com site and “pre-order” his record!  THAT’S WHAT KICKSTARTER IS!!!!  IT’S A PRE-ORDER THAT HELPS FUND A PROJECT!!  

Listen, I’m fine with everyone having opinions on how things work, you can see that I have mine.  But this wasn’t a thing that Nathan from Spoken Nerd said at the merch table at a show, or amongst friends in a private setting.  He had production value, a nice camera, editing, etc and that meant he had time enough to think through what he was saying.  So maybe he wanted to ruffle some feathers and get some attention.  But I think that if you’re going to make blanket statements that can come off as judgmental about something, maybe consider all the angles first…actually no, just don’t make blanket statements, that’s the true lesson here.

Why The Grammys Make Me Feel Bad About Myself

So the Grammys were last night.  I know this because I have a twitter account, and these days that’s all it takes to be reminded of a large pop culture event. Normally I happily align myself with slew of slamming snarky commenters cranking out “live tweets” for such a massive event.  But for some reason each year as soon as the Grammy coverage starts I start feeling bad about myself as a musician.  Like I haven’t worked hard enough this year, because if I had, I’d be there sitting between Dave Grohl and Bon Iver. It manifests itself in equal parts jealousy and snobbery.  And this year it was worse, for some reason. 

I thought about it for most of the day and the best way I can describe it is like working at a job where they have an “End of the Year Award Ceremony” and most of the people getting the praise and attention are the “annoying people” at work:

There’s the “lady” whose outfits are inappropriate for work but she gets away with it because the bosses go “gaga” for her, and even though her work is pretty average it’s covered up by her constant drama and  ”look at me” attitude.

There’s the guy who isn’t in the same department as you and you wouldn’t even be up for the same award, but still he’s tall and charming, and has the cute blonde wife who’s also in his dept. and it just makes you sick to see them beaming at each other all time with their disgustingly cute southern drawls. 

Then there’s the cocky guy whose confidence is equal frustrating and infectious and even though he rarely follows the rules and is always hitting on the receptionist (even though she a gold digger) he never gets fired.  Although he is sent off to anger management now and then. 

There are exceptions, of course. 

There’s the cool hardworking guy that everyone likes who you scoff at with your friends but secretly want to be best friends with *cough*Dave Barnes*cough*, the couple that’s worked hard all year going from “random obscurity” in the company to consistent “employees of the month.”  And even the chubby, funny, british girl who just had her heart broken. And even though you feel for her, you kind of wish she would shut up about it and move on already. 

Then there’s me and my friends.  We’ve worked hard all quarter, showing up on time, plugging away at expense reports, trying to get meetings with the big bosses so we can show them what we’ve got, but at the end of the year not only are we not even nominated, we are still about 2 or 3 steps away from even getting an invite.  

So, why do I let things like the Grammys bum me out?  Is it because I know deep down that I’ve spent more time feeling sorry for myself than putting the work in to write as much as possible and get my name out there?  Is it because even though I know it’s unfair self-abuse, I consistently compare my career and musical journey to these others? Or is it because deep down I believe in myself as an artist so much that I think I could easily be in those seats waiting on my name to be called?

The answer is yes, to all of it.  But the last reason is the most important one.  Although my actions and petty whining sometimes show the opposite, I actually believe in what I’m doing here and think I’m only getting better, thank goodness.  So, this morning I woke up with a sense that even if I never get nominated for an award or get the accolades of the industry, it’ll be ok.  That’s not even why I do this.  I create because I have to, because I love it, and because I think it’s important.  Although the press I’d get from a Grammy nod would be INSANE.

The Working Musican

“Oh, yay, another blog!” is an example of something that is rarely (if ever) uttered these days.  But yet here we are.  And believe me, I know how hard it is to make your brain pay attention to something on the internet longer than 140 characters, but I’m braving these waters regardless.

Like most things I do that turn out to be something of merit or at the least somewhat interesting, I’m starting this blog on a whim, an impulse, and without much thought past the initial premise.  I wanted to start this blog to chronicle the lessons I’m learning, the grievances that I need to air, and the nuggets of wisdom I pick up on a daily basis, as a full time working musician.  That’s what I am, that’s what I do.

A little about me off the top:

1. I’ve been playing music (guitar being my main instrument) since I was 15.  Which is coming up on 15 years this April.

2. I’ve made my living playing music off and on (more on than off perhaps) for at least 8 of those 15 years.  I’ve played constantly and consistently though. Even when I’ve been frustrated with pursuing it as a job, I’ve sought it for inspiration, insight, or recreation.  It’s what I do best, arguably and I can’t imagine being better suited for anything else.

3. My “job” as it were is “music” in general, but more specifically involves (in order) songwriting, recording, booking my own shows, promoting said shows, traveling/performing said shows, rinse repeat.  And on occasion co-writing with other artists, performing guitar/piano for other artists, and talking to other artists on my bi-monthly podcast called Who Writes This Stuff.

In my nearly 10 years of writing, performing (nationally and internationally), and recording I’ve come across a lot of other guys/gals doing what I’m doing.  Working hard to create something that’s interesting, fun, and uniquely them.  Sometimes hundreds of people show up to hear what we have to say, some times no one does.  These guys aren’t getting nominated for Grammys (yet) or write-ups on Pitchfork (yet), they’re putting one foot in front of the other and are laying the groundwork in steps for a worthwhile cause; a career in the arts, in music.  

A lot of guys quit along the way. It gets too time consuming, too frustrating, their plans or interests change, they get a girlfriend…  This blog is here to help raise awareness for those that are choosing to pursue music in all it’s various forms, that you’re not alone.  It gets grueling, especially when you’re an indie without a booking agent, label, management, but even then it’s not a guaranteed walk in the park that ends up on MTV Cribs.  The struggle will always be there, but it doesn’t have to be a lonely one. 

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